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Disappointment.. And self-resentment. The hodgepodge of self-destructive emotions seemed prime to blow within the queen of chaya as she walked upon mostly deserted streets towards the palace of her eldest sister--Mana. Her eyes deadened and ladened with the many sorrowful emotions that had broken through her self control and threatened to bring her past the brink.

”It was foolish of me to think that the result would be any different.. Wasn’t it? The thought was a foolish one, but she had it all the same as she looked at the dim lights that flickered from high-rises that surrounded her like sentinels in the red night. The streets however remained blissfully empty, a small favor given the crumbling state of inami’s mood.

The throbbing of the gashes upon her face, that she chose to leave unhealed was a welcome distraction as the queen felt the painfully hot blood drip down her face, blackened smoke dissipating from it to dye the street around her in shadows.

Befitting of her nature, these shadows were filled with ethereal lights, wisps that continued to wander aimlessly, eyes aglow on the periphery of these lights speaking of horrid creatures that lurked just beyond the safety of the light.

”How many times will this accursed scene play out? Is this futility? The dark thought encapsulated her as she stopped and retched at the wayside, black sludge spilling out of her onto the pavement. The darkness spread outwards as Inami’s corruption continued to spread across the world around her. It would spread into alleyways and dye the world in putrid smog, even more so than it was already.

It was like this portion of the streets had simply become a quagmire of darkness, with the queen within, kneeling upon the ground in it’s center, the dry-heaves overtaking her as she felt the cold-claminess of her disgust finally sinking in. The tremors, much like the day Inami had drug them all--kicking and screaming-- to mana’s palace had once more returned.

”Why do i get my hopes up?” Inami thought sullenly as she contemplated the state of her existence. Why did she need to behave so demurely when everyone else in her family was so dead-set on destroying everything. Why did she need to love them so deeply when all they did was lie, kill, and deceive one another? Where was the fairness that humans liked to preach to one another?

”That's right, we aren’t humans, we don’t have the same concepts do we?” Inami thought to herself as a smile of mockery blossomed upon the sorrowful visage of her face. A gentle little snicker escaping her lips, one that was eventually overcome by sobbing as the queen of chaya buried her face inside of her hands. The pain that wracked her an accumulation of the futility, the unfairness, and the disaster that simply continued to fight against her family every step of the way.

Even when she had felt like the sky had fallen she had not cried, even when neoveta had died, even though she had been broken, never had true tears of sorrow graced her face. So often she had been able to bury the hurt within another emotion, be it pain, anger, indifference, joy, or amusement. Even when ceal had died of her own mistakes, she had not truly cried. But now, as she saw a familiar face, with blackened eyes and tears of sludge ask her.

...I don't know the cure... It's ravaging me…, ...It won't stop... Is this a curse..?

She now knew the answer. Yes it was a god-damned curse, and she had no cure for the girl she had failed so completely. She had no cure for her family that continued to break. She had no god-damned cure, and she could no longer pretend like everything was okay. and so, she cried. The sorrowful notes of the woman who had for so long held up the sky, who had tried to put aside the hurt and forge a new future, spilled forth as her blackened tears spilled between her fingers--dissipating into mist.

”Aunties sorry, she’s failed you."

The words escaped her lips so softly that only she herself could hear them. The words that sounded so incredibly broken, and so irreparably shattered.



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The corruption that follows an event of pure sorrow, pure pain, is something that can only cause Arianda's heart to break in the simplest of ways. She swallowed softly as she did her best to chase after Inami as she felt Inami's pain so acutely; as if it was stabbing her very heart. Algos had truly done it this time. First, she had promised Ari she would do everything for Caly; to make up for what she had done. Now, she had turned it around and disrespected Caly once again; treating the girl who had dealt with more than enough to make her an adult, a child. It made Arianda's heart and mind scream with rage. However, she could care less about Algos right now; the last thing she needed was more attention. The last thing Algos needed was support. Inami needed that.

Arianda had seen the way she was when Algos turned herself against her family once again; she looked almost exactly like she did in Minatumi. She looked broken, her very being desiring to tear itself apart; and Ari felt it all. Maybe because the demon wished to have open communication with Inami; maybe because the pain was so acutely tuned to Ari. Either way, she moved to catch up with Inami, pushing aside the crowd of demons with her influence alone; albeit it wasn't quite as harrowing as Inami's vast energy. Afterwards, even though Inami was only walking, the demon sprinted after Inami; as if Inami was the one running.

She could not say what was going through Inami's head, but she could guess; especially with how everything was being affected by Inami's influence. The street seemed covered with flecks of darkness and unnatural occurrences as Arianda chased after Inami. She pushed on no matter how dark it got. Inami needed someone, even if that someone was only Ari; but she was still family, and she cared deeply. However, even if Arianda had withstood a great deal of Mana's powers in the past, she had the help of her seal to resist it; and more energy on top of that. However, she refused to give up; even if it was difficult as hell for Arianda to push through a darkness that only Inami could venture through easily. However, the demon eventually set sights on her sister; on poor Inami.

As Arianda got closer, those painful emotions once more pierced Arianda's heart like hot blades; causing Arianda to gasp as she felt every inch of the pain Inami felt. She saw the woman collapse to her knees after doing what appeared to be puking; or attempting to. Arianda grit her teeth, ignoring the pain and sorrow she could feel crying out from Inami. From her connection to the other Eris Siblings, she could barely make out bits of speech; enough that Arianda could barely ascertain what Inami was feeling. Arianda growled under her breath as she summoned a spear of energy and cut her way through the darkness; throwing the spear over her shoulder, which dispelled as soon as Arianda finally made her way to Inami.

She pulled Inami into a tight hug from behind, the demon whispering a few words of comfort; hugging Inami tight. Eventually, without asking, Arianda looked towards their general destination; Mana's Palace. Bad memories would help no one. Without asking, Arianda picked Inami up, resting the woman's head in the crook of her shoulder and her neck, holding the poor demon like a bride as she gently pecked Inami's forehead. Perhaps she had no place, but she cared not. Physical comfort was Arianda's specialty; and they needed to leave. On her knees, Inami was in no state to leave. So, Arianda bore her weight and made off towards Flow City; using her powers of movement so she did not have to worry about running into anyone she did not wish to see.

It was time to visit a place where she once called home. A place Inami had likely never been, one where Arianda had believed she would never return; but, with the near year-long vacancy, she was sure the only thing it felt like was Ari herself. Possibly nothing more. She pecked Inami once more on the forehead as they moved through the skies of demon world, Arianda not giving a damn if she needed to expel extra energy to move quickly. However, as she moved, the demon gave Inami a warm, loving, endearing smile; maybe it wouldn't make everything better, but it could help.

"My dear sister, trust me when I say you have only failed when you have given up entirely; that is true failure. Perhaps our family is beyond saving, but I'm always here if you need me. Never hesitate to ask."

Being an empath of a sorts, given she did feed off emotion, made it easy for Arianda to tell certain things and then guess; and right now, Inami felt like she had given up, had failed herself and everyone. Arianda wouldn't let that happen, or at least she would do her best to get Inami back up on her feet. Eventually, the demon made a soft landing in front of her old house; staring at the forward facing façade of what made as well be a mini-palace. Arianda smiled some, giving Inami one more tight hug before she moved inside the house with the woman; locking the door behind them as she took Inami to the softest chair that still existed in the place. Once more, Arianda pulled Inami into a tight hug after setting her down, burying Inami's face into her bosom; doing the best she could to comfort her without words. Not all was lost, after all. Algos was currently the loosest screw; and perhaps... Perhaps something could be done.

Arianda just hoped that she could help Inami in the ways that mattered most.

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As she kneeled there, sobbing, Inami’s world had slimmed down. It was no longer that she had intricate understanding of her surroundings because in her distress, she had solely focused upon herself. That was why the signature she had normally kept inside, the corruption and chaos that was so tightly held at bay, had bled out into the world surrounding her. The shadows and the smog churning and contorting like a living, breathing testament to her truest nature. The feeling of chaos, of primeval intent was something that had spilled out into the streets, and had caused all demons in the vicinity to lock their doors in fright and unease.

Yet as thoughts of destruction and self-loathing passed through her mind-scape, Another came for her--a family member had sought her out in one of her lowest moments of existence. Arianda, a woman whom she had only met once in a truly unfortunate circumstance was the only one to brave the turbulent miasma that so many would had fled from in fear. She cut a path in the darkness to arrive at it’s origin point, and in doing so tried to mend the hurt that inami had finally succumbed to.

While she did not recognize the tender hands that held her, and did not register the warmth that was afforded to her in the darkness, some part of her did understand, and in that moment the embers smoldered within her, and a faint, flickering flame alighted against the gloom of despair within her.

Normally, Inami wouldn’t have allowed another to have such a level of total control as was afforded to Arianda in the moments to come, but the pain was to great, and she did not wish to return to the realm of conscious thought. It was because of this willful if not suicidal negligence, that Arianda was successful in moving the queen of chaya to her abode, bringing her into the depths that lay within it.

For hours, Inami would not respond, even after the sobbing ebbed away to silence, her tears of blackened sludge continued to flow, and the tremors that radiated from her core continued. The world continued to sporadically defy logic, and Inami seemed almost.. Catatonic by how uncommunicative she was. Yet, eventually as those hours seemed to pass by Inami finally roused from her stuporous state and her lips parted to make way for halting, murmured words.

”...I dont quite understand..”

Inami seemed resigned to the truth before her, even if it was one that was slightly confusing to her. There was a tiredness to the queen as she raised her hands to gently wipe the sludge-like tears from her eyes.

”Why was it you who came..”

There was so much unsaid in the words that left her lips. So much hurt, so much tiredness. The fact that it was not algos, or mana who came for her, nor was it calypso or any of her closest of kin, but someone whose connection with her was so sparse that it was almost solely borne of blood, that had come, without ulterior motive, and without a single thought.. Was.. A hard truth to swallow.

Still, Inami didn’t rant, she didn’t scream or shout at how unfair that truth was. She didn’t bemoan the woman who had shown her compassion. Even if the hurt continued to radiate within her.

”When did i get here?”

Inami asked as a small sniffle escaped her lips, tiny beads of fresh tears trickling traitorously down the corners of her eyes as she looked up at Arianda, her moon-kissed complexion marred by the pale, red puffiness that ringed her eyes.



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In all truth, Arianda did not know Inami all that well. The woman was basically her sister, due to how Arianda was related to the Asthavon's; and Arianda went to her aid like it was what an old friend would do. She did it as if she was supposed to be the first to go for comforting Inami; not Mana, not Algos, not even Caly, but Arianda herself. Even to the very demon that had Inami wrapped in her arms, comforting her for hours on end, it was odd; but something about how Inami's pain screamed to her was something Arianda was unable to ignore. She herself had recently experienced pain related to family... even if that pain was only in a memory; pain of loss... Maybe something like that was why Arianda was hugging Inami as tightly as she was, trying to help the woman through physical comfort; through tight hugs that would hopefully accomplish what words could not.

Even if Arianda may have made the incorrect decision to move inami, even though it could be the best choice to remove her from the situation, she would still stand by it and want to do it again if Inami needed the comfort. Eventually, however, Inami seemed to have recovered from how much she was shutting off the outside world; how much she didn't even realize Arianda had picked her up and taken her to Flow City. To a home in which Arianda had truly abandoned. However, Arianda soon realized that Inami had finally spoke amidst her crying; her words coming out in halting bursts.

Arianda gave Inami a warm smile, she could not help but emphasize with the woman; to witness family treated so poorly by other family. Arianda reacted with such anger, but Inami had reacted completely different; she had nearly broke at what Algos had done. Arianda had only gotten angry, because she has no true compassion for Algos; but Inami had her heart broken once again, for the second time by the same woman. It truly made Arianda quite sad. It made Ari think about the time she had spent with Mana; a woman Arianda had loved with her entire heart, but she was never treated more than a pet, or even dirt. Treatments to break ones heart. Meanwhile, Inami was experiencing something quite similar with Algos. However, what shouted out to Ari, what caused Ari to run to Inami and be her shoulder; her comforting person, was the pain she felt.

It was such stark, honest, sorrowful pain; Arianda just couldn't help herself. She didn't want Inami to be alone, or to go to Mana once again and cause even more harm to herself or others. Which was why Arianda was the one who came. Arianda Vael, one who held barely a single relation to the Asthavon's, was the one who had wrapped her arms around Inami in the most comforting embrace she could muster. However, when the demon spoke, Arianda simply gave Inami a soft, fond, smile; one that highlighted Arianda's features surprisingly well.

"Why me~? Because I couldn't bear to let you feel such pain alone; I couldn't bear it at all, Inami. I may not be close to you, I may not even be the right person to help you feel better; but it was me because your pain spoke to me, Inami... And I didn't want you to be alone, not without someone to help at least..."

Arianda gave Inami a sheepish, but caring, smile. Surprisingly enough, the sludge-like tears hadn't marred Arianda's clothes; which meant she had possibly kept them clean with magic. Regardless, Arianda was warm, comforting, and certainly had the presence of someone you just wanted to curl up with in a chair with. Arianda may not be the the person Inami wanted at the moment, but perhaps a Demon who had tried to disconnect herself from the Asthavon family was just who she needed; a demon who completely understood her pain. Or, at the very least, had a very good grasp on it. After a brief tightening of her embrace around Inami, smiling still at the woman, the question that came surprised Ari.

She honestly had no idea how much time had passed. In truth, Arianda was far too worried about making sure Inami was alright instead of being concerned about the passage of time. Which was why Arianda blinked in slight confusion, passively conjuring a handkerchief and gently passing it to Inami so she could wipe her eyes with it; if she wanted. Otherwise, Arianda would simply rub the woman's back very gently; making sure she was feeling a little bit more relaxed before speaking once again.

"I'm... not entirely certain... It's probably been three or four hours by now... I figured my old place would be a good area to be for a bit. Get you away from everything for a small amount of time... Not leave you alone and all."

Arianda once again gave Inami a warm smile as she did not break their innocent embrace; one entirely meant to help Inami feel better about what happened. Even if they did not know each other well, Arianda was glad to be the woman's shoulder to cry on; luckily sludge-like tears don't seem to stain.

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When she had asked why, she had honestly not expected a response. Inami’s words had been more of a mechanism that she had put for, a last ditch effort to rationalize the pain and the disappointment that had shattered her heart and thrown her into disarray. An attempt to quell the feeling of drowning that continued to flood into her chest. An attempt at regaining control. Even when she had long since fallen into chaos.

So when Arianda actually answered, Inami’s red rimmed eyes widened faintly. She heard the words that spilled forth from the womans lips, even if she did not completely understand why.

” Why me~? Because I couldn't bear to let you feel such pain alone; I couldn't bear it at all, Inami.”
Arianda had said.

It was surprising. An unfamiliar feeling lurked beneath the pain--mired in confusion. Why was it a stranger who cared for her so? Why wasn’t it her kin. Why wasn’t it those who she’d shoulder the sky for--who she’d fight the entire world for? Why. Why!?! The sickening sadness and pain was only momentarily overcome by a flash of frustration. A flash of pure, unfiltered rage for the unfairness, for the misery that had cycle after cycle been inflicted to them all.

”I may not be close to you, I may not even be the right person to help you feel better; but it was me because your pain spoke to me, Inami... And I didn't want you to be alone, not without someone to help at least…” arianda had said.

Alone? Yes.. she had for so long. The fact that someone else had come, because they could comprehend her pain, because they wished to experience that pain with her. It was something far.. Far more surreal to the queen than anything else. For she had honestly always been alone. The pain that she bore was a pain that was hers and hers alone.

Then came the memories, the deluge of pure disgruntled thought at the efforts that she had put forth which had inevitably gone down the drain. Trust that was regained, only to be broken once more. Hopes that had simply been destroyed.

Yet, beyond the pain, there was a part of inami that beneath it all was a tiny bit glad. Glad that she wasn’t alone, that another had come to her. That someone had braved the darkness and reached out with a warmth-giving hand. Even if they were almost a stranger to her, the fact that they had simply come… meant the world to her.

So, Inami breathed in the scent, and let the feelings of warmth wash over her as she nestled her head in underneath the other womans chin. The tears that continued to flow, and the emotions that continued to tear her up inside causing another sniffle to be elicited from the queen. A soft hiccup escaping her mouth as she sank into the support given to her.

”So this is what it feels like, to have another to lean upon.”

Inami thought to herself softly as the soft tremors grew, and the woman let another wave of wrenching sobs escape her mouth. The queens curled up form buried within arianda’s embrace as the heart-wrenching noises that left her mouth, weren’t as loud as they had been before, but they were full of the pain and misery she currently felt. For once in her life, she let it out of her own free will. The pain, the hurt, the disappointment and the rage. The feelings of betrayal and broken trust, of hopelessness and apathy. All of it, all of her despair. She just let it out.

Even if they were almost complete strangers, it had been this stranger that had come for her. It was this stranger that had held her hand. When her family had not, they had. Inami was relieved, relieved that she no longer had to put on a show. That she did not need to adhere to the carefully constructed facade that she had erected the past few months.

Oh how she had longed for one of her family, her blood, her kin, to lend her a shoulder to cry upon, to tell her that it would all be alright. How she had wished that this would have brought them together and made them stronger.

But it hadn’t.

It had only brought more war, more hatred, more anger and more destruction. It had wrenched them apart, even as it had momentarily brought them together. The acrid taste of reality was mixed with the notes of lilac and cinnamon that Arianda’s presence was composed of for Inami. Yet as she continued to cry, as her broken voice continued unabated from her mouth, Inami knew one thing.

She was done with all of it.

She was done with the pettiness and the futility. She was done vying for a future that had only continued to fragment and break, in a system was flawed and broken. All this pain that lingered in her chest, pain that stemmed from all that was wrong in this world only brought her back to that singular thought. A realization that if she did not step forth and change, that this world would continue to break apart and would never mend.

A realization that she had given up a long time ago and had simply accepted that her dreams for equality would never come to be. That this realm would only continue to self-destruct over petty, trivial creeds. That as much as she loved her family, they would never be there when she needed them most. That demons were ultimately selfish, self-serving creatures with immortal lives.

”Almost all of them..” Inami thought faintly as she fought down the churning within her stomach that threatened to cause her to puke once more upon the floor. Her nose gently inhaling to take in more of the calming scents within the room. As if in doing so she could take in the comfort that had extended to her like a bastion of light, to fight against the darkness and hopelessness. Much like how a fisherman looked for land in the midst of terrible storms, Arianda was the point of stability in her chaos.

Inami was not too proud, nor was she too naive to think that she could work through this on her own. The pain that stabbed into her like broken glass, or searing hot knives fresh from a forge, was not something that she’d be capable of combatting by herself. It was much too fresh, much too raw for rational thought.

Inami found herself listening to the beating heart within arianda’s chest, as she tried to calm her shaking body, and quell the erratic beating of her own heart. She found herself trying to quell the self pitying thoughts in her head; and eventually--when she once more could speak, the words that eventually escaped her hoarse throat were.

”Is this okay?”

”Is it okay for me to seek such warmth?” Inami thought to herself, not saying the second part aloud, her broken, tiny voice further muffled by Arianda’s cleavage as she leaned into the woman, her arms having found their way behind Arianda’s back, wedged between that in the chair. Inami’s soft, petite self was ice cold, and yet she continued to snuggle in.

She knew that if she wanted to truly find warmth, that she could no longer continue on as she had. That something had to change. Time and time again it had been proven to her that nothing would change if she just let things play out.

”Can I be needy?’”

Inami asked softly. Keenly aware as the sadness became less all consuming, with how incredibly needy she was being. With this awareness came an instinctive fear--that she’d simply drive this warmth away, and she’d be left with nothing but cold, cruel reality once more. That this little flickering flame would simply be snuffed out again as soon as she showed her hand.

She didn’t withdraw, she didn’t want to leave the warmth, she didn’t want to leave the feeling of acceptance and safety afforded by this embrace. Yet it was clear by how tense she was that she was afraid that this was.. a foolish interlude. That she’d blink and once more be on that street, with her mind hijacked by a pain and despair so completely consuming that nothing else had registered--not sound nor sight, or thought.

Inami was afraid, and that fear only added to the sadness that had broken her so completely.



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Such pain, such... Such pure, honest sorrow; sorrow from how her family is. Sorrow that Inami had not received such comfort from one of her family. Sorrow that she never seemed to be truly appreciated by her family. And all of it compiled into a sheer pain that stabbed at Ari's heart and mind as she felt every inch of it; so much so Arianda too felt like crying with Inami. However, she still had plenty of joy, happiness, love even, in her heart to share; which was why Arianda did not complain as Inami deepened the embrace. She could only give Inami a reassuring smile whenever she looked upon Ari with such fear; such uncertainty. Arianda wanted to make sure that Inami felt like this was honestly, and truly, real.

However, no matter how much their embrace deepened, how much Inami had nuzzled into Arianda to try and gain purchase on warmth; she never seemed to find it. Arianda was such a warm presence compared to the ice cold Queen of Chaya; whose body felt as if she had been in the cold for hours without proper clothes. Arianda kept her close, let Inami nuzzle as deep as she needed, and even held Inami a bit tighter as she tried to get warm; but none of it really seemed to help.

Such coldness, such pain and fear, was what caused Arianda to nuzzle her cheek against the top of Inami's head as she continued to bury herself in Ari's warm embrace; and that same warmth started to gently radiate throughout the room. The Resolve Flame. Probably one of the more useful things Ulv has done for Ari; and Arianda was gently harnessing it to help Inami find the warmth she needed the more she moved to cuddle Ari and find warmth in the depth of her embrace. However, how much Inami was able to accept and feel this warmth would be up to her; all Ari could do was offer the warmth and allow her to further lean on Ari.

She need not be afraid that this was but an interlude of a dream; it was as real as Arianda's heart beat. Inami need not fear the embrace she sought.

Eventually, Arianda started to gently pet and rub the back of Inami's head; gently caressing her head and hair with gentle strokes. However, eventually, Inami posed more questions to Arianda. Short questions. Simple in statement, complex in the answer she sought from Arianda. To Arianda, it was completely okay for Inami to be hugging and cuddling Arianda like this; it hurt nothing for the Queen of Chaya to bury her face and head into Arianda's bosom. To Arianda, the search for warmth and comfort was nothing short of natural; for every being. Such things are why Arianda gave Inami a warm, caring, smile as she felt the woman's arms slip around her body and hold her tight. Arianda continued to gently run her fingers through Inami's hair as she comforted the woman gently; with both physical comfort and the gentlest of touches of her Resolve Flame.

"Of course it is okay, Inami~ We may not be human, but we too vie for warmth and comfort; to deny such simple pleasures, to deprive oneself of them, is unnecessary. I'm sorry you haven't been able to find someone to lean on, Inami... that your family, I suppose our family, is not the greatest with... a lot of things. However, I'll be there if you need me, alright~?"

The second question, however, was slightly more difficult to answer. Sure, Arianda understood that everyone had their own set of needs. However, she could not help but wonder what Inami's needs were at this moment; aside from wishing for the warmth of someone she could lean upon. Someone that she could come to with anything and find help within Arianda's comfort and words. Indeed, they were basically strangers, with the Asthavon's being the largest connection. However, Arianda cared not. Inami did not deserve to suffer in pain alone after all that she had dealt wit hat the hands of her own loved ones; because they cared not for Inami's feelings and what she wanted. Not to mention, they also clearly did not give a crap about what Inami had done in the past; such things are what caused Arianda to become a little angry at the prospect of Inami being mistreated by family. As twisted as Arianda had been by the Asthavon's influence, basically only Mana's in truth; she knew a family should not treat each other like the Asthavon's do. The few memories she and Amphy had uncovered of Ari's mothers was enough to convince the small demon of that.

"Yes, it's alright Inami~ We all have to be needy at some point... you're safe here, I promise it. I honestly doubt anyone would come here anyways... It's been empty for a year anyways. But truly, Inami; it is alright for you to be needy."

Arianda gave the woman another warm smile before she deepened their embrace with Inami; gently nuzzling against the top of her head as Arianda held Inami close in as much comfort as Ari could muster for Inami. However, as they cuddled, Arianda could feel palpable fear leaking out of Inami; the woman clearly afraid of something. Was it giving into this moment? Was it something else? Arianda could not tell, she was no mind reader; just adept at guessing based on the emotions she felt. Regardless, she knew Inami was afraid, and that fear was something Ari did not wish for her to feel.

"It's okay, Inami. I promise it's fine. Just relax, breathe, and focus on me, okay~? Nothing bad will happen while I'm here, this moment won't fade away into darkness; I won't let the warmth be stolen from you..."

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The touches and caresses were like soft rays of light in the darkness, incandescent like a mythical will-o-wisp. Inami drank them in, letting her face rest against arianda’s ample bosom. Listening to the words of affirmation that remained being said to her. Words of comfort, words of acceptance for the weakness that the queen showed. While it did nothing to mend the hurt that ravaged her, or appease the sickness that roiled within her, it did bring her solace. The scent of lilac and cinnamon that continued to pervade her keen nose brought her a budding sense of tranquility. Even if she was hundreds of years old, Inami was still as hurt and alone as she had been all those years ago. Like a frightened beast. Unable to let the hurt out. Inami was afraid of the weakness, as much as she was devastated by her inability to stop her family from falling to pieces.

”Why was I put here arianda?”

The muffled voice was hollow and lost. The rawness of her pain, the scratchiness of her throat that had been turned raw from the crying and screaming lent a huskiness to her tone. Above all though, there was a true sense of emptiness that came from the pain. Like a fragile victim of a terrible crime, the images kept running through her head. The images of her failure. All of them. Over and over they continued to churn and fester, causing the queens eyes to look distant and dim. Glassy and unfocused as they inevitably closed while the queen allowed her face to continue to rest against Arianda’s bosom.

”Once I cared not, and I simply existed to indulge and destroy.”

The queen mumbled, her thoughts as random and frayed as the white-hot tongs of pain and misery that even now caused tears of sludge to fall from her eyes, tiny tendrils of blackened smoke dissipating from them into the room surrounding them. In her shock, she couldn’t leave the hurt bottled up inside. The grievances and the anger, the sickness and lethargy, and even her pride. All of it intermixed and interrelated with one another, and for so long she had just let it be. Pushing it down, letting it be forgotten. She had hopped if she simply let it be she’d forget entirely, but now? She just wished to speak, not of what should be said, but what she wished to say.

”Then, I thought it would be possible to create peace, and instead there was war. “

Inami sniggered softly, even though there was nothing funny about it. Her voice was halting and faint but none the less as the tremors grew, as the queens petite form remained firmly entrenched within arianda’s embrace, she let the grievances that plagued her spill forth like a flood of ebbing toxicity. She let all of it bleed into the realm around her, causing shadows to faintly spill forth from her bodice.

”I thought I might have a kin that loved me. Then she was sacrificed.”

Inami’s fingers dug into arianda’s shirt, causing small tears to form as the blackened tears that dripped from Inami’s eyes finally seemed to begin to dissipate, as her eyes flashed between asthavon green, and her natural heterochromia.

”I thought I might have children until I drove them away.”

As she continued to speak, her body continued to shrink. The glittering gowns of silk dissipating into shadows, the flowing hair shrinking and turning brown. Her body just continued to shrink until it looked like a young girl. Whose shoulder-length brown hair was in disarray. The glasses that adorned her face crooked and broken.

”I thought I found love, to only kill them in a lapse of control.”

By now the pain was given way to pure, unabated hysteria. The fragmented pain of the past four years, the mistakes and the loss that she had held inside. Everything that she had felt, all of it, was coming up in an ugly, untamed, white-hot anguish that rolled from the queen in waves. She bit the corner of her own mouth hard enough to draw blood with her razor-like teeth as she felt her tears stain the front of her blouse.

”I thought I could be a queen, and yet I still am as powerless as ever.”

Inami felt another sob escape her mouth, but it was one that was cut short as she swallowed it and hiccuped faintly. Her arms withdrawing from Arianda as she leaned back some atop her lap, trying to use the backs of her hands to wipe the endlessly falling black tears that continued to mar her face.

” I am unable to protect a single thing, even with all this power I have gained.”

Her nose was rimmed red, as well as her eyes as she continued to cry. Her razor sharp teeth peaking out from beneath her lips as her emerald eyes, framed by thick lashes finally opened to gaze down upon arianda. Her petite, girl-like stature showing that beneath the bravado and the power, Inami was still a broken girl who had never truly found what she had needed.

”Instead I can only watch happiness crumble away, slipping like dust between my fingers.”

Inami’s eyes shimmered, alight with sadness as she screamed, her shrill voice cracked and broken like the rest of her as she let her fingers lower to curl once more into arianda’s blouse, her face moving down once more.

”HOW, WHY!?!”

The words were broken, garbled, and incoherent. Yet they contained everything that needed to be said. She didn’t need to articulate how she felt, she did not need to articulate her anguish and confusion over algos. The dissociation between the vile host that existed, and the pure girl who had nurtured her back to health. The powerlessness over a family that only continued to shatter, despite her best efforts to keep them together. A world that hated their kind, demons who needed leaders but only got children, squabbling pointlessly.

” HOW MUCH MORE…”

Her voice rose to a dizzying screech, before it finally softened, the dizzying hysteria still there, but finally having given way to her despair. For now there was just an emptiness to her words as she whispered softly.

”Do i have to suffer?”

Inami’s voice was barely a whisper once more but between the soft hiccups, gentle tremors, and sniffles it still was easy to hear the words that escaped those bleeding red lips. It was easy to feel the emotions that lay behind them, and easy to understand the pain that came with them.

”Do i have to watch this futility, Powerlessly.”

Inami softly turned her head, letting her cheek rest against arianda’s breasts as she looked at the wall to the left, listlessly taking in the appearance of the room.

”For i cannot bare it any longer.”

Inami closed her eyes as she bit her lip once more, her razor sharp teeth drawing more blood as the queen relished in the pain that for a moment, allowed her to escape her misery. While it did not bring clarity, it let her feel something different, and for that moment, she wallowed in that pain willingly, before finally her lips parted and she said softly, her voice cracking.

”The pain is too great. “



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Inami Asthavon, a demon Queen, was becoming unwound in Ari's arms; a sight that was honestly quite surprising to Arianda. To see such a proud, noble, woman to do this with someone she may not even be able to trust was... odd. However, Arianda did not tell Inami to stop, or try to leave; she signed up for this. Besides... Ari's relationship to the Asthavon's basically made them related; and Ari felt like she just couldn't abandon Inami to be alone and suffer so. However, the things that came next were quite surprising to Ari.

A change in appearance, one to show her Asthavon relation, and such hoarse tones that tore her throat and voice apart. On top of it all, Arianda felt such great sorrow and... and pain. Pure, sheer, PAIN.

Such pain... such true, unruly, suffering that hurt Ari's heart and soul to hear. How she wished to help Inami, how she wished to relieve Inami's pain and lessen her troubles; but she knew such a thing was not quite so possible. Arianda winced slightly when Inami shouted, letting her arms fall to her sides when the woman pulled away from her. Not to mention, she was also watching Inami closely as her appearance seemed to revert to what appeared to be her true form as an Asthavon; green eyes were certainly something that caused such a recognition. Arianda looked on at Inami as she seemed to come apart at the seams.

Arianda looked towards Inami, ignoring the small tears in her clothes; ignoring how enough tears could render herself topless. She cared not, what she needed to do right now was to help Inami. So, after Inami went through a brief bout of shouting, before her voice came out in small tones once again; wondering why she must suffer so. To be left with so much pain for years upon years, having no one to vent to; it certainly had to hurt a grand deal. The demon could only smile a small bit when she wrapped her arms back around Inami, giving the woman's head a gentle nuzzle as Arianda's warmth and scent seemed to grow slightly stronger; the little demon gently easing Inami's pain by eating just a bit. A small amount, but enough to hopefully create a way for more of Arianda's comfort to gain purchase; something to aid Arianda in consoling and comforting poor Inami.

"I wish I could tell you why, Inami... I do. All creatures are made to suffer just because we were born, and unfortunately; this family is quite difficult to help and come out unscathed. I myself tried to help Mana once upon a time... I didn't exactly fair terribly well during and after."

Arianda gently tightened her hug on Inami, likely pulling the girl deeper into her warm embrace as she pushed the side of her face against Inami's head; letting out a gentle sigh as she once again did her best to comfort Inami.

"You aren't alone anymore, you know... I know it hurts, I know what it's like to lose a lover at your own hands; not exactly something anyone wants to experience again. But..."

Arianda smiled softly as her resolve flame started to burn stronger; radiating just a bit more joy for Inami's sake as she did her best to ebb away at her pain. Soon enough, Arianda smiled gently as she rubbed and caressed Inami's back with such care and gentleness.

"You do have me, Inami; and Amphy too. Sweet little biscuit is surprisingly wise sometimes~ Everything will be okay with time... we both have to keep this family from tearing itself apart; as much as possible. However."

Arianda's voice seemed to get a little hard as she held Inami a bit tighter, gently nuzzling into the woman as she continued to comfort her physically; doing her best with words as much as possible.

"Inami... You can't keep this bottled up anymore. If you do, you'll only hurt yourself more; until you can no longer handle it. I don't want that to happen to you. Such a strong demon, and your people need you; we all do. So, promise you'll try to come and talk to me whenever you need to, okay? Even if I need to leave Minatumi for a bit to do so... I won't let you shoulder this burden alone; not anymore."

Arianda gently caressed the back of Inami's head as she let the woman stay in her embrace as much as she wished, not wanting to interrupt the embrace as long as it still helped Inami in her current state; doing her best to let the woman feel warm.

"And Inami... If Calypso could make a difference in Mana, if I could stop something I was being pulled into, and if you can still wish to help your family after so much pain; I know it can be done. It will take time... and also you taking a step back, even if just for a short amount of time. Even if it's just a day's, or an afternoon's, break every so often; that could be enough. Our capacity for emotions is so great, it's easy to become overloaded at the end of the day. Just take a break now and then, okay? I'll step in when you need to rest."

Arianda smiled warmly at Inami, even if she could not see it; gently gliding her fingers through the short brown hair Inami now possessed.

"Everything will be alright with time, Inami; and in time, I promise your suffering will be soothed, and joy shall be felt. Honest happiness that will help us all. And you won't be doing it alone. I'll help you as much as I can, dear Inami; and lessen your suffering and that of our family."

Arianda smiled as she leaned back gently, allowing Inami to snuggle deeply into her embrace as the demon rest her chin against Inami's head and did her best to provide the most relaxing, soothing, things she could muster.

"I refuse to let you feel so alone again..."

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The sweet agony, it reverberated within her soul, and it crushed her heart. Even now, as she had finally begun to accept the hurt and pain, the acrid tones burnt like blazing staves within her. Black blood continued to drip down the corners of her lips, and she continued to hug herself, as if by making herself smaller, the pain would go away. As if by hugging herself, she could protect herself from it all. She wished that she could return to the numbness, where emotion did not bring her pain.

But that was impossible now. For she could not contain it any longer.

Instead, the whimpers that escaped her lips as she laid against Arianda’s breast, like a beast that was injured, easily encapsulated the feelings of agony and remorse. Sure, she had continued to scream, continued to cry, continued to question. The nasty, negativity continued to plague her, whispering sweet nothings in her ear such as ”Just give up, It’s pointless. Just give in, you’re weak. You’ve failed, just stop trying.” In that small, comfy room, Inami was at war with herself, just as much as she was trying to keep her head above water. She could still hear the words afforded to her though.

"You do have me, Inami; and Amphy too. Sweet little biscuit is surprisingly wise sometimes. Arianda had said with that soft, soothing voice of hers. Even though Inami couldn’t help but internally look at such a profound declaration with nothing but pessimism and scorn. ”Even if you’re here now.. You’ll eventually leave. Everyone does eventually.” Inami thought to herself as she hiccuped once more, her blackened blood dripping downwards onto Arianda’s blouse, the blackened notes of her ichor slowly dispersing into lazily trendreling miasma, undulating almost mesmerizingly in the light that surrounded them.

From those tendrils of smog came shapes and figures. Some depicted love, others depicted loss, and others still depicted loneliness. It was almost like these notes of her power that surrounded them were similar to an exploded kaleidoscope. The images that churned and whirled, fleeting and yet profound afforded a much deeper look into the experiences and emotions that Inami was currently feeling. From the monochrome grays of apathy, her life had been afforded hope, only to have that hope crushed once more. As the images continued to flow and churn, The horns that faintly grew to adorn the queens head, and the swaying tail that rest against arianda’s thigh both completed the appearance of the queen.

When she looked up faintly, hearing the words that had continued to be said, about how she could not keep it bottled up any more, A sadistic, sick, sad peal of laughter boiled over from the queen’s mouth. Her hand moving up to wipe snot that had trailed down her face away with the black tears that continued to fall without end. The blood that continued to flow from her mouth had smeared onto her razor-sharp teeth, further accentuating the predatory nature of the queen.

”You want me to let it out huh?”

The tears that continued to spill over were a parallel to the profoundly amused smile that adorned the queens mouth, a veritably cheshire-like grin that had parted to allow her to continue to laugh. The numbness was gone, and pain was all that was left within this queens swirling and shattered mind. The sadness was so much more once the numbness that had accompanied her shock had finally fallen through.

”You want me to tell you that my sister killed her daughter?”

The profoundly devastated look that adorned the queens face, and was seen within her luxurious, large emerald eyes was enough to end nations. The desolation of her soul, the anguish of her heart from the past half a decade, all of it was boiling over to the surface.

”Do you want me to tell you that mana let her daughter be raped by her auntie and another?”

All of the things that Inami had known, but never dared bring to light. The sickness and the madness that she had fought with for so long. The blackened sludge which poisoned her soul, why could she not vent them? If arianda was aso hell-bent on making her feel, something beyond this pain. If she was sure that she would continue to aid her then why should she not? Why should she hold back?

”Do you want me to tell you when the person who nursed me back to health all those years ago, died, I wished to go with her? Do you wish me to tell you that for years when I saw algos, I let myself believe she was still alive in some capacity?”

Inami took a jagged breath in as she repressed the feeling of revulsion that had lay within her, like a noxious, toxic soup. She would not get sick, not when she was speaking of the vileness that she had allowed to continue, the pain that she had been unable to protect or fix. She refused to let herself feel better in any manner, when these retched emotions.. All of them were one's that she deserved.

”Do you wish for me to tell you of how sad i’ve been? How devastated I was when my niece raped her sister? Or how devastated I was to realize that I was truly not enough for my niece to relent? How devastated I was when I realized my family is broken to bits. Like sand, slipping through my fingers and scattering to the winds? How sad I was when I realized that nothing will be the same.”

Inami exhaled, and a sob escaped her mouth, the pain that shattered her growing, melding and churning within the fragments of her psyche. The queen removed her arms from around, Arianda and used her hands to grip her forearms. The force enough to tear gashes in her skin. A vile peal of mocking laughter escaping her mouth, intermixing with the sob as she heard what Arianda had to say about everything being able to be alright.

”If I can still help them? Am I even capable? If I was why did my eldest daughter renounce our name, and why did my youngest vanish? Even if I wish too.. How can I help something that is already so profoundly broken? “

Inami inhaled once more, letting the feelings wash over her. Letting the misery soak in. When she exhaled again and she cried again, and she felt the fingers that eventually trailed through her hair and she froze. For such a mighty being, there had actually only been one person who had touched her in such a gentle, consoling way. and she had failed her so completely.

”I don’t believe you.”

Inami said softly, scoffing at the very notion of everything getting better with time. A little snicker escaping her mouth amidst her soft whimpers. Inami simply didn’t believe that this was something that could fix itself any time soon.

”Even if I want to, I don’t.”

Inami blinked slowly, as she let her emerald eyes gaze upon Arianda. Much like a beast looking at prey. There were many inhuman emotions that couldn’t even begin to be identified within Inami’s gaze. Yet, there was still her sadness persisted.

”I don’t know what happiness is Arianda. I’ve never felt such a pure emotion, never without the taint of something else.”

Inami closed her eyes softly as she leaned into the comfort of arianda’s breasts once more, and enjoyed the feeling of her soft hands upon her head.

”I have felt anger, excitement and lust. Amusement, pain, and sadness. I have even felt love, but never Happiness.”

Her thoughts once more were disrupted when Arianda quite simply stated that she would never allow Inami to be alone again. It was such a foreign notion that the queen couldn’t even laugh at it. She couldn’t cry, or make light of such a promise. She could only sigh softly, a feeling of desolation overtaking her.

”How can you be sure you’ll keep such a promise Arianda?”

Inami blinked softly as she adjusted herself so that she looked sideways. Her eyes gazing at nothing in particular. One of her hands moving up to rest atop the hand that was caressing her hair. Her eyes closing softly as if she could draw in the warmth.

”We’re immortal after all. Are you sure.. That one day you wont regret that promise?”

Inami was so tired of being given promises that weren’t true. She was tired of hurting, tired of pain. Her heart could only take so much. Her heart was already broken, so what why would she let it break further? Inami felt beyond that pain though a glimmer of hope, and that was what scared her the most. She didn’t want to hope anymore, she didn’t want to have to feel like this again.

” I can’t.. Have my hopes dashed again.” Inami said softly as she let a hiccup escape her mouth.

”I can’t.”




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In all honesty, it would be a lie to say that some part of Arianda was not a little scared by how Inami was acting. She probably had bitten off more than she could chew; as she had once done with Mana. However, Arianda had basically caught Inami right at her breaking point; and had gently pulled her back from the cliff of no return. Even so, the woman was still unbalanced and scared; frightful of what she may do. Terrified that Arianda would only break her promise like one other had tried in the past. Not to mention, she also seemed to question Arianda's truth and sincerity; wondering if Arianda would come to regret such a decision. However, no matter how much Inami caused Arianda's skin to tear and bleed, or cause her clothes to rip just the same, Arianda could only give the woman a warm smile. Everyone deserved to know what happiness was; no matter the person, no matter their origin. However, Arianda knew that Inami, most of all, deserved happiness after having her heart torn apart time and time again by her family and loved ones. Arianda could only gently hug the woman tighter and tighter; even as Inami seemed to get a bit more violent and unstable. Soon enough, however, Arianda let out a small chuckle as she caressed Inami so gently; with such a great deal of care.

"Inami... if I can somehow forgive Mana for what she had done to me, and yet not regret the things I had done or promised to her; what makes you think I would regret my promises to you? I mean what I say, Inami. I'm not some callous fool who makes promises without the intent to keep them; I try to make the ones I know I can keep beyond a shadow of a doubt. And, Inami, I meant what I said. I refuse to let you feel so alone again."

Arianda smiled warmly once again as her resolve flame burned bright than it likely ever had; spreading warmth through the room as Arianda continued to caress Inami's head and back with such gentle strokes. The affection and care in her voice was real, and no negative voice that whispered lies and pain into Inami's ears could lead Inami to think otherwise of how sincere Arianda was.

However, Arianda soon felt herself jarred by the news she had heard from Inami about what had happened; between Algos and Calypso. Such a thing further cleared up Arianda's feelings towards the woman who was her "sister" and caused Arianda to grow a bit too silent as she listened to Inami. However, the silence soon faded and Arianda pet Inami gently once again; caring for the woman as she knew Inami needed more than anything right now.

"You can claim to not believe me all you wish, Inami... However, Mana was far better than she had been in the past; thanks to my daughter. Mana apologized to me about the things she had done in the past, Inami... if that is possible, then I believe things can get better..."

Arianda soon gave the woman another smile as her tail carefully curled around to rest upon Inami's tail and across the woman's thigh; much like Inami's tail had done with Ari. She smiled again, gently caressing Inami with such care and affection; taking to how she should handle not dashing the woman's hopes. As long as Inami did not wish for more than she was getting now, basically sisterly affection, Arianda knew she could easily keep her word. After all, she did hold affection for Inami; especially if the woman cared enough to ask about Amphy. Besides, Arianda was more than glad to be Inami's shoulder to lean on; her person to depend on if she needed... Her dependable younger sister, even.

Arianda soon gave Inami's head a gentle pet, slowly running her hand down the woman's back; purposefully carefully avoiding places she would not wish to be touched. She rubbed her back gently in the way that could be most comforting as Arianda continued to cuddle and hold Inami with such care. Truly, Arianda was doing her best to make Inami feel better in her arms; doing her best so that Inami felt comfortable. Not to mention, she honestly wished to convey to Inami that all of her intentions and words were completely true.

"They won't be dashed again, Inami... Dashed hopes are the worst thing for any of us; and that is something I don't want you to endure again. I won't regret anything I have promised or said. Because, Inami, I honestly and truly don't want you to be left alone again. I won't..."

Arianda leaned in closer, holding Inami tight as her voice lowered to more of a sincere whisper; something she felt was right in the moment, for some reason she couldn't truly explain.

"But, I will make sure happiness shines on your life, Inami. That you experience it truly; for you deserve it, my dearest sister. Don't be afraid... I'm right here."

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