What To Do [Liltotto, Giselle]

Fri Aug 19, 2022 5:24 pm

Liltotto Lamperd

God, since that day in the park it didn't feel like her head was on straight. She was fine carrying out her duties and going about her day, but she would always have the thought on her mind that she fucking spoke feelings to a guy, and it worked out. She was happy it worked out, of course she was! But at the same time it was simply.. What does she do with that? She'd never acted on her feelings like this before, she had no experience in being in relationships, nor did she never ask for advice in it.

Well, maybe that last part had to change. Problem was, she only had enough nerve to ask a single person about that sensitive topic, and she was entirely unsure of whether or not she'd get any actual advice out of it that wasn't weird.

Giving her apartment door a few knocks, Liltotto would pull out her phone, texting to Giselle - "Hey, at the door. Need 2 talk 2 u abt smthn".

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Fri Aug 19, 2022 5:32 pm

What To Do [Liltotto, Giselle] HEADER_sample-183a079839c6b6d9e5a4565d1130875b

Giselle was ...... out of sorts. She had been ever since. Psh. Who knew. Her sense of time was completely thrown off. She hadn't been eating for the past couple days other than a few snacks. She hadn't slept, and she kept ..... trying to place the feelings and ....reactions she'd felt from her particular source. So when she got the text, she almost jumped out of her fucking skin. A pause..... before she got up, rubbing her eyes before opening the door and blinking. A sigh of relief. Oh, thank goodness. Liltotto was still all grown and shit. "Hey. What's up? Come on in, I think one of my neighbors is on crack or something." she noted, hurrying Liltotto inside. ACTUALLY they had just been making a lot of noise complaints the past month or so. But well, Liltotto didn't need to know that.

All the same, once they were inside, Liltotto.... probably wouldn't notice much difference. If there was one thing good about Giselles habbits it was that she didn't make a ton of mess, even when.....wigged out. All the same, she directed Liltotto to the couch... making sure she sat on the far side, and then sitting next to her. Giving her an expectant smile, waiting to see what brought her in.

Fri Aug 19, 2022 5:47 pm

Liltotto Lamperd

"Uhhhhh, alriiighhttt..?"

Liltotto would come on in, though gave a quizzical side glance to Giselle as she walked in. She didn't seem super well, to an extent that concerned her. Giselle wasn't super open when it came to talking about things, so she decided to not push it for now. Pulling a small bag of chips from her side bag, she'd sit down adjacent from her mother, sighing softly,

"Hey, so uh... Not to be alarming but... I kinda, admitted feelings to a guy..." She'd speak in almost a mumble towards the end of her statement, "..And.. Like, I feel very many things that i'm not used to feeling right now, and I sure don't know what to do with em... So like, I was wondering if you could give some input on that..."

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Fri Aug 19, 2022 5:58 pm

Giselle snorted, chuckling a bit as she noticed thebag of chips and settled down, a brow raising ever so slightly. Curious what was going on. She was.....well...not as ontop of things as she usually was. However, her brows raised for a moment when Liltotto clarified. "Huh, that was a bit faster than I expected. Especially since you seemed to averse to the idea last time we talked about this." Giselle murmured, the faintest hint of a sly smile on her face. They HAD pretty much had a conversation about this not that long ago. .....right? She did ...blanche a little. How long ago was it for Lilltotto? She still was ...unsure. But she did her best not to let it show.

"Yea that's normal. Over a thousand.........uh...years...."" Was that even right anymore? Ugh her head fucking hurt. "Well, a long time with Humans and I still can't always tell what they're gonna fuckin do. BUT! don't worry. What you're feeling is pretty normal. But before I start ranting. Why don't you tell me a little more about this fellow, hm? How did you two meet? How did you tell him? Cmon, details details~" She chimed excitedly! Briefly wondering what the likelihood of grandchildren was. Now now Gigi pump the breaks, don't get TOO ahead of yourself. She settled, and then refocused on Lilttotto, clearly intrigued to hear more about who Liltotto would potentially be spending the next fifty years with~

Fri Aug 19, 2022 6:15 pm

Liltotto Lamperd

She'd run a hand through her hair at that realization. Yeah, just a few months ago she just didn't let herself have these feelings, like she didn't deserve it, didn't deserve to be human... And now, look where she was now, "Yeah, I guess stuff changes when you get boobs and the desire to live."

A faint chuckle followed Giselle's goading for her to talk about him, "Well, while back, he knocked at my door asking if my little growth spurt affected my appetite, said no, we talked a bit, offered a meal at his restaurant, said yes, and things went on from there," She knew it wasn't the most magical sounding circumstance, but that was how things went down, "Volunteered at said restaurant on free time, got to know him a bit better, realized I felt stuff... And like.."

She'd groan, putting her head in her hands, ".. It's a lot. He's a sweet guy, he makes me feel like... Seen? Happy, definitely.. Understood? It's hard to explain. I kind of just went along with my feelings and asked if we could just, try something."

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Fri Aug 19, 2022 6:29 pm

She just smiled casually. That little 'I was right' smile playing across her lips as Liltotto juuuust so happened to recall Giselle having spoken about this VEEERY subject long ago~ Heheheh, Mother always knew best. All the same, she let that smugness simmer as she listened to the tale of Boytoy. Her brows raising just a little. Huh, so he made the first inklings of moves. Interesting. But not surprising. Humans were so short lived they definitely enjoyed pouncing at the first sight of fresh meat. Especially meat that wasn't USED to being hit on. Not that she was fully convinced thats what this fellow was doing. But well. It was always a possibility with humans. Some men could SMELL uncertainty and insecurity in women. But well, she wasn't concerned about that. SHE wasn't having any thoughts of potentially hunting the man down and peeling his spine out of his ribcage. She was quite sure Liltotto was capable of doing that all on her own, and most likely WOULD.

But no, she focused on the present for now and ... nodded slowly. And ....pursed her lips. First confusion, and then her brows raised as she ....suppressed the urge to smile too wide. But well, Liltotto would know that 'trying not to smirk' expression all too well. She ......fell for .... a chef. Well that was.....adorable. All the same, she couldn't help but ..... smile. Some level of pride in Giselle. Ahhhh, she;d raised Liltotto well. Liltotto was smart, smart enough to have phrased things correctly. 'He makes me feel seen, understood' Not 'He sees/understand me'. An important distinction. It was easy to allow feelings to sweep you away, as well. As Seen or Understood as Liltotto FELT. The truth of the matter was, that this young man would NEVER fully See or Understand Liltotto. Much less having known her such a short time. And she was pleased that Liltotto properly phrased it. And it gave her a better understanding of what was going on.

Liltotto wasn't being swept carelessly off her feet. She was reacting to unfamiliar perceptions, ones she was ware of the reality of. God she was proud of her... " I see. Well it sounds like you've made a very good start of things. Human girls always struggle at first. They don't know what to do, or how to change with these new feelings. But hey, you've even taken the step of talking to him! It certainly sounds like you've got a good floor plan in your head. Trying things out. I'm happy for you!" She chimed.

There was, of course, no shortage of ...other things she might say. FEELINGS and THOUGHTS she had about this little predicament. But well, it was the skill of any parent to know when and where such things had a place. Liltotto had come to her. And so Giselle couldn't help but want to focus more on LIL's thoughts and nfeelings rather than her own.
"Still...you don't seem....psyched about it. In fact from your message I thought you were coming to me for some kind of problem. So cmon hon. Spill the beans. What's worrying you?" She asked, tilting her head.

Fri Aug 19, 2022 7:05 pm

Liltotto Lamperd

Those sneaky little trying-not-to-smirks only made her stomach feel more sick, as surprised as she was to feel butterflies in her cavernous core. She wouldn't be surprised if Giselle's weird motherly instincts were kicking it in that head of hers, especially since she looks both bothered and sleep deprived. Well, couldn't be worse than what Olden Days Zombie Blood Witch Giselle had going on in her head.

Though, her lips would purse slightly with Giselle's praise of her trying new (scary) things, her fingers slightly fidgeting amongst themselves as they were curled on her lap holding the chip bag in place. Her head was dipping as the woman prodded her for her deeper thoughts on the matter, the worrying kind of course.

"..Well," She'd start with a bit of hesitance, but took a breath and kept going, "I guess, no matter how much i'm making myself put it aside, I can't... I can't help but think of what's next. My only exposures to relationships are movies and dating sims, and those are hella fucking dogshit most of the time so i'm not even considering those. It's not even just that he's likely gonna live a human lifespan, it's... Just, everything about it. I've never been in a relationship before, i've hardly attempted to even hold down friendships since I was like, fifteen. Fifteen sure as fuck was like several hundred years ago, Giselle, not to mention that lovely little period where I was basically watching everything I ever cared about get hacked to pieces, irradiated, or dragged away for something worse than death. And the shitty attempt at trying to blend into humanity. And the fucking off from society."

She'd let out a heavy breath, "..I want to feel happy, I want to feel like a person, I want to not have to worry about shit, but my god it fucking sucks right now, trying to process everything and trying to just be a normal ass human being at the same time. It's so frustrating I want to puke it all up so I don't have to think about it anymore and just, chill."

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Fri Aug 19, 2022 7:34 pm

Giselle.... nodded slowly. Well, she expected this. Of course she did. This was basically a mild extension of what Liltotto's concerns had been when they had this conversation a few months ago. Only NOW she was on the verge of getting INTO that. And .... even knowing all that she did. Knowing that ...Lil would move on from this. It didn't necessarily..MATTER ...how bad or well this little shindig went. In time...Lil would learn, and grow from it. Hopefully it went well. MAybe even it would turn into true love, as unlikely as that was. But ....it still hurt Giselle...that Liltotto had to suffer through the process. She .......so dearly wished...s.he could just... GIVE Liltotto all of her...experiences and knowledge. Or well....let Lil....skip all this. To be able to look BACK on these ...trail experiences. But she couldn't. Lil had to ...LIVE through these trials in order to grow. And that wasn't usually a fun process. She scooted a bit closer and gently set her hand on her daughter's shoulder.

"Liltotto."' She noted softly, the rare full name to get her daughter's attention. "The wonderful thing about humans.... is that you ARE already thinking like one." She noted with a soft..rueful smile. "Whether you're your beautiful, lovely, several hundred year old self....or if you were just some.....dumb new little twenty year old human. You'd be just as scared. Sure, you have more...CONTEXT for your fears. But you also have context enough to know that you never know WHATS going to happen next. Just because the past has hurt you, doesn't doom you to being hurt again. And I assure you, even if you were some...young pretty little human. It would feel just as scary. Humans have a ....way of amplifying their tiny little problems. Something as simple as..... meeting some new person from another country feels like the entire world will crumble if they don't make a good impression. So at the very least, you're feeling every bit as human as others." She smiled..... and ...envied her daughter a little. It was ....VERY hard for her to feel that way. Even with Candice.....she ....didn't worry.

And ...she worried about that. Especially when Candice had revealed her little.....toy she'd picked up. In truth.... Giselle would have been furious in the past. But she wasn't. But a normal human...WOULD have been. And she'd noticed how .....off...Candice had been about her reaction. She sighed quietly to herself, her......self consciousness....about her inability to ....feel human things. And focused on her daughter. Who still felt and cared so much~ It was beautiful to see. "I know its ...crazy and overwhelming dear. But THAT ....is what makes you human. And I'm sure this lovely young man is probably feeling the same way about you. You're VERY pretty you know. Well...that's probablly not rhe word going through HIS head, but I'll stick to pretty. And no doubt he's just as nervous about you. And if he's not....well you can always just eat him." She chuckled. Joking of course, attempting to bring a bit of levity as she patted her daughter on the back.

Fri Aug 19, 2022 8:06 pm

Liltotto Lamperd

She would jump with a tiny squeak when Giselle would touch her shoulder, raising her head to acknowledge her mother as she'd speak. She could barely register the emotions she felt as she listened, the worry was still there, but there was also relief, maybe some frustration lingering as her eyes darted between the floor, her lap, and Giselle as she was trying to sort this all out internally. Being human was so complicated and messy, she'd think, but in a way it was kind of... Thrilling?

It was nothing like those days she'd lie in the back seat of her beaten up car, hungry, and with nothing to her but a void of emptiness. The discomfort she felt now was nothing compared to the days she spent alone. Not even a comparison - those days were definitely infinitely more painful than who she'd like and her needing to find comfort in her feelings.

She never wanted to go back to that...

Her eyes were squeezed shut as she calmed and centered herself, at the very least an external sense of calm. She still felt all mixed and jittery and yucky inside,

"..Even if it doesn't end up working out, i'm not gonna do something that extreme," She'd respond with a fleeting chuckle, "I guess... I'm thankful I feel anything. Even with what I am, and where I came from, I just want to have a normal life. Even if I end up outliving him... At least I have the time to cherish."

She'd dip her head lower, "...Wow this shit is hard."

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Fri Aug 19, 2022 8:22 pm

Giselle chuckled softly at that and patted her daughter. "I know you wouldn't hon. you're a good girl." She sighed, looking at the clock and rubbing her eyes. Hmm. Yea...her sense of time was all sorts of fucked up. Guh.

"Yea..... yea it is. But to be fair, humans are familiar with that too. Humans USUALLY don't die both at the same time ya know. Usually one of them dies first and the other ....you know... is left. So you know. Even if...or when..that happens...however long that will be, it'll still be a humane feeling. But at the very least, you'll be able to try and start over if you feel like it. It....SOUNDS like it sucks. But we got it ... a bit easier than humans. Usually when they lose someone, theyre you know....old. They don't have much left to look forward to, and one of the few htings they DID cherish is gone. They don't usually last too long after that. But with us....we still got the whole world ahead of us. And hey, who knows. Maybe you'll have kids or ....something." Not that she knew IF Liltotto could have kids. Though that was probably more up to Liltotto than anything. If anything, the ...glowup had made it more apparent that MOST things about Liltotto were....well up to Liltotto. At least as she understood it. Limited as that was. She still reached out, and gently ushered Liltotto into a hug. A soft... gentle little squeeze that tightened a bit as Giselle.....sighed and realized it had been a hot minute since they talked.....right? She couldn't tell. But all the same...she wanted to ....just hold her kid for a second. And some small...smug little smile made her chuckle, wondering if that old fuckface Erchan was too macho to hug his kids when they were older. She'd have to ask him sometime.

Ah right, she release Liltotto, realizing she'd been hugging for a while now. "I'm glad ya came to me for this Lil. I know my advice isn't...you know....always the most ...helpful. Or ...sensitive." She noted with a sheepish smile. Oh yes, she was very aware just how ....weird Liltoto found her advice sometimes.

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