Yukashii wondered if she had said something weird; but the male was taken aback by her words. That was probably the best way to describe that expression, as her fingers relaxed a little. She would have to return these Zanpaktou's soon, didn't she? After all, it would only become harder the longer it was parted. The girl knew that people hated being apart from their Zanpaktou too long; after all, it became a part of them through a long time of bonding. The woman just let out another smile, as the demonic male seemed to be thinking; she was curious of course, but at the same time, she wondered if everything was fine. Her eyes, full of green curiosity, looked over his frame, trying to evaluate his moods, and emotions. But what did she know? She wasn't even sure what exactly would happen to make things like this; but he seemed to be trusting her more and more. He even began to explain the reason why he wanted a Zanpaktou; and understanding that desire, she just gave him a light smile. ''But the Zanpaktou is something that is special to us; if it was easily reproduced, it wouldn't be so special right? I could do some research, but I know that demons have grown to have powers to match our own. Perhaps you just need to refine those even more?'' she said softly, her eyes almost quiet in thought. Yes this was something that was hard for even her to phantom; but if she could maybe.. get a line into Shadow fall.
''I see.. then Eric, I will call you that. My name is Yukashii Sosobi. Soon to be Yukashii Kuchiki once I get married.'' she said softly. Anyone with passing knowledge of the Gotei would understand immediately what that meant; that she was related to Byakuya Kuchiki, former captain of the squad she was currently in charge of. But did that even matter, as the girl smiled at him. ''Thank you for being so honest. I do wonder how you broke free.. hm.'' she said softly, tapping her chin in thought. ''Oh.. pardon me. Can I be rude just a second? I was wondering if you have any friends still in Shadowfall, maybe to get information off of, or have someone that you could make friends with. Something like that. But I'm just being rude right? I'm so sorry.'' she said with a half-sad smile; in fact she wondered if he had children too. She had the sense that his break through was probably to protect someone; she wasn't sure of course, but the look in his eyes. That haunted, scared look; she knew that look very well, for she herself faced it in the mirror every morning. It was the look of someone that was afraid of losing someone and something important to them. So perhaps that was the reason why he was able to fight against Shadowfall. ''Ah, I'm sorry for being so rude. I'm just thinking too much I think. Pretty stressful as of late.'' she said softly with a large sigh. Perhaps for the first time the girl's weariness could be seen.
Yukashii herself had a large amount of duties, along with so many captains going missing and so many things just happening three, four at a time. It was just too much, and the woman herself was starting to get a little too tired of all these events. ''I feel so bad for being so rude.. I wish I could offer you tea.'' she said lightly, still dwelling on her faux pas. She hated making people feel uncomfortable, and she knew, in the parts of herself, that mentioning something like that had basically hit a weak spot. ''You know, I have a child. I never got to see him much though, because I had to continue my duties as a shinigami.'' she began, unsure as to why she just began talking of her son like that. ''I miss him, quite a lot. I never got to see his first steps, his first words, his first day of school. I missed all of those things, because I kept my duty to the Gotei 13. I couldn't risk putting him into danger because of my presence. That's the most painful thing as a parent isn't it? I just want to make this world safe, for him, and all the other children out there. But I can only do so much.. and it just feels like we're fighting a one sided war against things that are evil. How much do we need to sacrifice in order to move forward? I wonder that.'' she said softly, her words flowing, gentle and yet holding a large amount of sadness. It was something a parent would understand best; the feelings for their child, for their future, and to help the world of now into something better for them. Those were the feelings that invaded her chest, her heart, and that's why she had committed such a blunder towards the male.
''Oh my, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to start ranting to you.'' Yukashii said, a bit startled at how open she had been with the male. Was that natural.. or was something forcing her to, like guilt? These doubts flew around in her mind, but she was still receptive of the male.