Not Feeling Well

[LudalfaThe Living Microwave]

Basically not feeling well and just want to give up on everything. going to just be deleting everything i ever worked on my computer and anything else i can think of, maybe this feeling will pass quickly or maybe im just going to erase myself from ever existing.

[THEFROSTHead Admin]

I've been down that road before and I think you should take a second to calm down. Take in some deep breathes, have a break and recompose yourself. I saw when this was said in the xat.

And let me say this: it is impossible to erase your existence no matter how much you try. So don't go down that route.

It is impossible because every action you make has a wide array of reflections in the world around you and will more than likely outlive you even if you try to destroy it.

So just allow yourself to rest and I'll be here if you need someone to push you along in your recovery. As I know how that feels and it can be an awful thing to want to eradicate your existence, so holler at me whenever on skype if you want to talk about it more.

[SageLord of the Understream]

I'm typing this from the phone, so please don't mind the weird spellings and grammar I may or may not display. Anyways, on to the point. When I read your post, Alpha, I couldn't help but post, even despite the difficulties in it; reason being, this sounds like something that I know a bit about, in terms of experience. Now, I'm not sure if what I've been throughout is something similar to what you're going through, as I'm not you and at the most, I can simply sympathize, until I know whether what your feeling was something spontaneous, or triggered by something, and if so, what it was triggered by. As such, at the very least, I'd like to be there for you. When I went through an experience that I think is similar to what you're feeling, I would've liked for someone to be there beside me. With that in mind, I can't offer any comforting words knowing if they'll help or not, but what I can do is be there for you, even if only through computer screens. If you need to talk, go ahead and hit me up (Skype is Vaaine.Guildenn BTW). If you need some time alone, I'll stay out of your way.

In the very least, know that I'm willing to do what you need me to do. And of those things I'm willinng to do, one of them is giving a piece of advice. You can't erase your existence. In the very least, people will still have memories of you, and in the short tine of my young, adolescent mind, I'd find memories precious, and no matter how much you may want to erase them, someone out there will hold those same memories dear. All I can say is, take a bit of time thinking over these thoughts--something I'm sure you're doing as is.