to know myself [ninsun inner world ]

Sun Jan 25, 2015 12:51 pm

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“where am i ? Is this my inner world? “ Ninsun thought as she looked around, on the other side of the door there was nothing absolutely nothing, nothing but destruction, ashes and a girl who’s hair was jet-black. She had come to find answers but it seemed that these answers where going to have to wait. So much hatred.. she could feel it as if it was an acute part of herself, such instability which brought her mind into the blackest depths of despair. She wanted to run.. but she thought back to what she said what kin had said. She took herself.. and didn’t run away, instead she just focused. She knew this was something she just had to do, there was no if, buts, or maybe next times. She knew if she was to advance past this point.. she had to change, for better or for worse. There was no second option this time, there was no do-overs, it was that she had to face herself and figure out exactly what she wanted. To do that, she had to confront and to understand, this sad co-existance between her emotions could no longer exist , because if it did, there would just be nothing but perishing, everything would become pointless.

Her eyes seemed to shift and her body, remained in a defensive posture. Her amber gaze shifting as all she could really do was try to figure out who and what the creature that stood infront of her was. Her mind.. and her heart, to learn of these things she knew, it was this moment that she was going to have to focus for, to get stronger for. If she was to break free and become herself, she couldn’t.. be this scared child which couldn’t focus because she hasn’t even come to terms with herself. ”..It was cool, father sure has.. a great comrade, Now.. i need to give him a proper answer.. so there’s no turning back.” Deep breaths, ninsun was taking deep breaths before she then begun shift and move to the side. Her lips parting as he watched the other girl, mustering up her courage , and getting what she wanted to ask in order, as she felt that she should at least ask what she really wanted to know. Instead of fighting over something sensless, at first at least she wanted to try to reason with her. Or what ever it was.

Indeed her voice seemed to remain level as she spoke, her body moving with every thought every breath she took, the beating in her heart. All of these things, defined her, which is why she would think of them as she asked. Or rather as she said in a firm manner which left no question that she was wanting to figure things out. Hoping to resolve things peacefully without conflict, without strife and without pain. A naive hope.. but her hope none the less.

”Who are you, i came here to find out what i want, and come to find that i’m not alone? What manner of incarnation of my fears are you? Are you a demon, or are you something else, answer. If you know then answer, i want to know because i need to answer a question that someone who is giving me something special asked. What is this place? Who are you, what are you to me?”

Sun Jan 25, 2015 1:31 pm

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”Who am i? I am you, ..runt.. i’m not talking to a runt..”

Black legacy would think, as she had brought her hand forward , seeing the form of a girl. She didn’t care, she just didn’t care, which was why as she vanished her hand and body had reappeared , driving a firm singular punch into the girl named ninsun’s body. The force would be apparent, given the air would distort and the ground would tremble, her white black hair whipping around in glee. She was amused, to think that the one who had been given control, would come to her so soon. Such a prime opportunity to become the dominant one, it was too good to pass up. Which was why as her metallic fist was buried deep into ninsun’s gut she wouldn’t answer. Instead she had sent ninsun flying across the expanse of the inner world. Her lips parted in a kind of laugh which was of nothing short of the finest amount of amusement which could be had from such a situation. This girl had come here to find out more about herself?! What a laugh! Black legacy sneered at the very concept as her hands moved and she brought her body forward vanishing in time with the blow, appearing over where ninsun would be, her fist raised all the way back ready to strike.

She wouldn’t be joking then, instead she would have used her “Force, absolute” driving the fist deep into the ground with enough force that if it hit ninsun it probably would have caused her to fly flipping end over end and then crash back into the ground deliberately creating another massive crator and not to mention hopefully sending the girl into her death so that she could finally be free. Although, was she done? No , not really, Black legacy would bring her fingers into another closed fist as she landed ontop of the crator. Her hand jerking down hopefully to cause the ground to buckle and for ninsun to puke up huge quantities of blood. If it hit of course seeing as black legacy just was trying to kill her as fast as she possibly could. She wanted to be free , she didn’t want to waste another second in this retched inner plain which she was forced to live in day after day. Her mouth parting and her laugh becoming substantial as both her hands would ball together and she’d bring them both down, hoping to destroy her in a single hit.

The whole time? She would be thinking about how things had gone, how she had been unable to really .. well do what she wanted to do. To be free, to be able to live her life as she wanted to. Black legacy longed these things, but knew as long as ninsun was alive, she would be unable to have these things. She would be confined in this little space without any means of escape or ways to truly learn what she herself wanted either. She thought bitterly on how ninsun had it all and yet she was risking it to learn more about herself. As if any of that mattered! If was insulting to think the girl which had gotten the good end of the stick was looking for more , trying to get even more. Wasn’t there a limit!?!? TO HOW much someone could be blessed to get?!?!?!?!?!? It pissed her off so much, to the point that as her first two wings unfolded she would have grit her teeth and said something in a primal anger, moments from bringing her fist down for what she intended to be the killing blow.

”So you want to learn and know more? You have everything, everything and i have nothing. Yet now you come here and demand that i give you the knowledge that you seek? I don’t give a damn if god himself sent you here to find out about yourself you MAGGOT. instead you will let me out of here, and you will die. You don’t even apriciate the gifts you have been given, want to learn more about yourself? APRICIATE YOURSELF MORE YOU WORM. you have so much , you have everything i wanted and yet you hunger for more, you search for more. Is that even fair? Should you even be able to get such a gift? It makes me sick it aggrivates me. Why don’t you just DISSAPEAR.

Black legacy would say as her fist came down, and if it wasn’t stopped? The ground would explode and the paramount force would be devastating, destroying everything and anything within eyesight.

to know myself [ninsun inner world ]

to know myself [ninsun inner world ]

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