Junko had noticed how kissy and lovey the woman was being with her, to the point it would make any normal person very uncomfortable. Though, she thought it would be rude to push her away and reject her generosity. There was still a seed of doubt in her mind, but she did take her time to smile at her new "mommy". She didn't understand how she could love her "oh so much" when she just met her. She didn't even know her; how would she know she'd like her? Junko's expression dimmed a bit when she began overthinking. Thoughts swam in her head, telling her things like this wouldn't last, she'd throw her out eventually, she couldn't and wasn't allowed to get her hopes up...
She flinched a bit when she felt her stomach rumble, feeling how painful the rumble was. She didn't even realize how hungry she was; how long did she not eat? She felt a little better when Arianda had placed her hand on her stomach and rubbed it.
"Uh... T-together huh..." She mumbled as she had mentioned they would be doing it together. She hadn't really bathed with anyone.. Ever. Not even her own biological mother wanted to even touch or look at her because she was such an abomination.
Soon she was seated to eat something, waiting quietly for Arianda to bring some food. She wasn't expecting... Anything really. The most she ever got to eat was a peanut sandwich with soggy bread or a cup of ramen. She had very, very low expectations for what the woman would bring. She quietly looked around the room, gently thumping her fingers against the edge of the table. This whole entire place was a lot to process for the girl, especially after being transported from one room to the next. Well, she did mention a tour... Probably really big.
And then, she stared at Arianda as she brought the plates of food out, her eyes widening as they were placed down in front of her. She was immediately hit with the wonderful aroma of the different foods, the smell almost causing her to break out in tears. She never was given an entire meal of something that smelled so good; she never could afford it herself and if she was around for any nice meals (which were the average meal to the normal person), she'd just be watching students look at her, sneer, then toss their leftovers in the trash as she watched. Arianda did mean it for her, it was for her...You don't deserve it.
She felt a hand touch her shoulder, a familiar voice in her ears. The room seemed dark to her now, slowly looking to her side. She had seen her roommate, smiling at her with that sweet, but poisonous smile. You know you don't deserve anything, why would you even think about accepting these things?
"I... I..." She barely croaked out, tears streaming down her face and her mouth having made drool.You know far too fuckin' well that you aren't allowed to have anything like this. And even if you put up the charade, it won't last.
The girl tapped her on the nose, giving her a self-righteous smirk.Because after all...
As she dipped her head down to her eye level, her facing at the side. Instead of the girl, it was her mother, her eyes almost bulging from their sockets. Her voice sounded like a million voices, all in a whispering, gentle tone...Everyone hates you.
Laughter broke out around her, her covering her ears and widening her eyes, appearing to have a small mental breakdown. She rocked back and forth, making whimpering noises. Her head hit against the table, the laughing stopping abruptly, the scene appearing normal to her. She quickly pushed the plates away with zero hesitation, beginning to bawl. Her fingers scraped through her hair, obviously seeming distressed.
"I'm sorry I can't accept this i'm not hungry I don't deserve this..." She quickly got the jumble of statements out, before taking a breath and deciding on one, "I'm... I'm not hungry. I'll be okay. I don't need to eat." She flinched as she wrapped her arms around her growling stomach, her eyes still pouring tears.
"Please... Please... Please..." Her head thumped on the table, her fists making the table shake as they pounded against the hard surface, "Why didn't I just die... Why couldn't I have just relieved everyone of my existence... Why can't I just disappear... Why do I have to be so selfish..." Her words were full of pain, and it sounded agonizing for her to even speak.
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