Only A Month Late

She was silent. Yugiri understood the words weren't weightless, as much as she was showing her sharper edges and justifying herself. There was a tentative spot she had put herself in, now she had all the responsibility on her shoulders. She shouldn't have that, she was banished. The former Shihoin shouldn't even be here to deal with this.

"You know Chidori, that was my life for a very long time. I assure you Rio's life is still like this, this is what we accepted life as. While I admit, my tone might mislead you into thinking I lack an iota of respect or fondness towards you as I might have implied in the past with my cold nature. I promise you that isn't the case."

That was the nice bit she had to say, now the reality of the situation.

"Don't say that. Listen to yourself, you've got centuries over me and are threatening me with the guilt of blaming myself if you did do it."

Yugiri followed her down. Staring at Chidori intensely.

"You're right though, you're incredibly young technically and also naive. You're not really suited to be in charge of the clan and Rio would be a much better fit rather than stressing over how hard it must be picking up the slack and worrying about a mistake from you happening. You came back with a shaky relationship and pregnant, forcing yourself into the position you are now out of ignorance."

Talking of dreams, it wasn't alien to her. It's not like her childhood wasn't filled with dreams of flying as a sweet break from her reality but Chidori's were more than a nice escape, it was a coping mechanism. She nursed the little boy, thinking she was getting the hang of lulling him into settling.

"Stop looking at your problems like this, fix them Chidori. What you do with yourself now determines how they view you. Do you think when they grow up they want to remember you as the mother that commited suicide and abandoned them because life was too hard? What have you even done to try and resolve Sol and your issues? I don't even know what I saw earlier but it sure didn't look like it promised anything good to come out of it with your relationship with him."

She was really blabbering now though, enough that Yugiri brought her hand up and slapped her to interrupt her train of thought and give a sigh. The first two ones she could entertain and answer but her questions became less sensible as it continued.

"It's clear to me, we're incredibly different and you handle your issues um.. differently. So, you're going to sit on that bed and rather than find yourself a pretty looking distraction from how hard your life is. I insist you instead lay there and think very hard on what you want out of life and where you want to be in the future until you can actually control yourself."

"Before I go as well, you're going to promise me that you will never kill yourself. You can run away, do whatever you want but if you kill yourself then I will never forgive you, I won't so much as keep a single ounce of respect either. You played this card on me when I didn't want to show up to the funeral, I did and this is the only time I will ever do what you did to me then."

Yugiri was not one to look for comfort in. Her words were cold, her threat was icy like it wanted to settle this whole room into a frozen tundra with it with how much weight she was trying to express at Chidori. Still, tough love was all she ever knew. When she made a mistake, she got banished and Yushiro showed her no mercy. The lack of mercy is what made her swim rather than sink. That was the best she could do without lying or coddling her.

"Now Yuushiro, you're going to be as big as Papa when I come back. Aren't you? Yugiri might even show you her super secret Shikko, it's the coolest. One day I'll go faster than Yoruichi with it and I'll really fly like a bird."

She said. Tickling his stomach to try and relieve what she expected to be a lot of stress with Chidori in such a state. The smile and small giggle was very forced but that didn't matter for the baby. She'd just fake it until she made it.