Hime remained poised even as Elyss tapped her hand away. It wasn't particularly of any surprise to the graceful woman as she observed Elyss rising up from her lap, assuming a sitting position with her back turned to the aqua-haired woman. Hime nodded her head respectfully, not yet aiming to make any movement towards her quite yet.
Rather than pursue her now, Hime simply continued her story, aiming to finish it and let her know what her point was, though she took care to listen to Elyss before she resumed the tale. She didn't go the wrong way about it. She had went against the very foundation of right versus wrong. Elyss was still missing the point but she understood her impatience.
"Well, I certainly did go the wrong way about it but that is not the lesson I wished to impart. Continuing from that point on, I didn't die that day and escaped from Soul Society. Arriving on earth, I felt extremely out of place with everyone else. I had threw away all that constituted my person through jealousy which left me open to being manipulated. That led me to cross paths with someone who proved to be a major threat to not only the soul society but the world. Many Shinigami died fighting against him. Many of earth's warriors suffered a similar fate. And where was I? Fighting alongside him, of course. I let myself be wrapped around his words, fighting and murdering anyone who stood before him."
Hime sighed as she inched towards Elyss from behind, placing a hand on her shoulder.
"I built a pile of corpses on my way to seeking affirmation, to let my existence feel it mattered to someone... anyone. And yet, I remained unsatisfied. When I felt as if I was going to be replaced in his aim to conquer the world, well, I betrayed him and chose someone else. Kin Iramasha. He was someone I had recruited into ender's organization. I could've ended things there, truth be told. We had successfully betrayed Ender, allowing him to be defeated due to a lack of warriors to fight alongside him. To be certain, He admired me and the way I had taken him under my wing. I could've led him to a path where he reunited with the people I took him away from but..."
Hime paused, clicking her fingers at Elyss's shoulder.
"I repeated the same process. I encouraged him to seek out his own path to power and what resulted was him building a core of people that would also prove to be a bane to Soul Society. The Kokuryuteshi. He had nearly proved to be a overwhelming force but, at the top of his rise, I betrayed him. He hadn't did anything to make me do so given how loyal he was to me but his aim was truly poised towards bringing Soul Society under his heel. I feared that my sister would be drawn into that and so... I selfishly betrayed him, defecting from what we had built and turning myself into the Soul Society."
Hime took a deep breath as she finished. It was never a pleasant tale to tell but a tale to tell nevertheless, especially for those who questioned their path in the world. She had fallen as far as anyone could imagine. She went from rising up in a pleasant family in the Rukongai, to joining the Gotei and looking as though a bright future had awaited her.
However, she allowed jealousy to consume her. She allowed wanting to be recognized in the eyes of others to destroy the bonds of sisterhood she shared with her beloved sibling. She became a cold-blooded murderer. She betrayed a man she helped develop as a warrior. Her crimes were many. Still, she stood here, which served as a testament to how life could change in the blink of an eye.
"I should've been executed. I shouldn't even be here before you but I am. So, Elyss, I suppose in telling you my tale... that the overarching lesson in what my tale is that... it is okay to feel as if you are going in the wrong direction. It is okay to fail and fall on your feet. If you have people who truly support you, who truly believe you can be what you wish to be, then you need only accept them and let them in, allow them to be there to pick you up when you fall. I know it's something you are not familiar with but don't always let yourself suffer alone or keep things held in. If no one else supports you, you can always rest your head on my shoulders."
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