Once again, Elyss was brutally honest. So much so that Hanako couldn’t decide whether it added to the pain or not. But in the end, also once again, Hanako had to admit that she was right.
This sober perspective of Elyss, harsh and cruel, was something she could hang on to and consider her own thoughts in a more dispassionate manner. It was truly a paradox. On the one hand was Hanako, who had for herself accepted that obviously was into women. On the other hand was also Hanako, trying to avoid the topic of sexuality at all costs. Why? Because it was uncomfortable. And she had no idea how to handle it. It was one thing admitting something to herself, but coming out in public...right here and now...
But then again there were situations like this one arose and it probably could have been avoided if Hanako just hadn’t stormed out.
Hanako took Elyss’s hand.
Confused...yeah, right. Hime wasn’t the only one. If it wasn’t a fight or training Hanako was confused most of the time because of something. People were strange and Hanako was just lacking the necessary experience to sort it all out.
Elyss pulled her along, back into the room and straight over to Hime. So, this was probably something that Hanako couldn’t get around. It would be awkward but in her mind, she thanked Elyss again. Who knows how long she would have sat out there if the redhead hadn't…
Wait a second. Elyss hadn’t come out when she had called out to Hanako. It had looked as if she had already been there. And she had avoided the question why she had been there, too.
“He, wait a moment.” Hanako mumbled towards Elyss. “You haven’t told me why you were out there…”
But then they were already standing before Hime. The moment when Hanako looked into the face of their host she felt a sting in her breast. It was guilt. Hime wasn’t someone malicious intent, not as far as hana knew. She had done her wrong, Elyss was right about that.
Before their hands parted again, Hanako squeezed Elyss’s quickly and lightly, a gesture of affection.
“Ah,...Hime, I am...mhm…”
Hanako took a deep breath. Her voice was a bit shaky and she was blushing again. She really wasn’t good at this.
“I...I wanted to apologize. I am sorry for just storming out.”
She bowed apologetically and when she straightened again she had found some of her confidence again. her face, though, was still a cute shade of red.
“I have overreacted...I...ah...you probably meant nothing by it but I have...I have probably misunderstood...taken it seriously. You know, I had some bad experiences, which you know nothing about, couldn’t have. So it is not your fault...I have wronged you and I’m sorry.”
She couldn’t bring herself to speak out loud that she was a ...whatever it was called when you liked the same sex. It didn’t really matter what it was called, but it just felt wrong to blurt it out here, with all the guests. Hanako wished she was more like Elyss in this manner, just speak what’s on her mind.
However, if Hime had paid attention, she probably could easily read from hanako’s words, what was going on. Why else would she have taken Hime’s joke as serious flirting or play?
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